Title: Pages
Characters: Summer Davis-Dylan, references to Robert Plant, Jimmy Page, John Bonham, John Paul Jones
Word Count: 410
Rating: PG-13, language
Warnings/Spoilers/Summary: Taken from Summer's diary, summer of 1975

Author's note: This IS canon with the epic. Midnight Shift spoilers. Don't read if that bothers you.



It happened. I suppose I always knew that it would. He's a rockstar. I'm just a girl he fucked. He might have promised me forever, promised me he loved me, but it was a lie. They all were. Every kind thing ever said to me was a lie. I know that now. I was young and naïve and head-over-heels for someone who really didn’t want me.

I should have never left the ‘farm’ and died with everyone else.

I know I shouldn’t think such things. Jimmy tells me all the time. Maybe not in those words, but he tells and shows me that I am someone, that I mean something to someone. I don’t know that I can believe him. I really don’t. Robert said so many kind things to me too and where is he now? Thousands of miles away with his wife and family, while I waste away in a hotel room with my puppy. 

I have Jimmy… or do I? He’s a rockstar too. And I’ve heard the stories, mostly from girlshe left behind. I am so certain it is going to happen again. So very certain. And I can’t go to my dad’s house because his wife doesn’t like me. What will happen to me when Jimmy gives me up? Because he will. They all do. And then I will be alone and abandoned without a place to go at all. I suppose Bonzo or John would take me in, but that too would be temporary. And how could my heart handle being with people so closely with the ones who left me behind?

I should leave him before he leaves me. Walk away now. He’s not in the hotel suite. I can take my puppy and a bag of clothes and leave. I can make it on my own. People do it all the time. But they probably have better skills than me, can probably read better than me, have some goal in mind. I just… I just…

He’s going to leave me too. I know it. Jerry took my mother from my father and then from me as well. I have nothing in this world, especially as soon as Jimmy leaves me. Because he will. I know he will.

I should leave him before he leaves me. But where do I go? What do I do? How can I love again if I run from it?

Dear Lord, someone save me.